Anna's ECT Diary

Part 3: Anna Writes About the Procedure to Come

More of this Feature • Part 1: Introduction • Part 2: Who Is Anna? • Part 3: Anna Writes About the Procedure to Come • Part 4: Anna Responds to a Letter from a Concerned Friend • Part 5: Anna's History with Depression • Part 6: The First Treatment • Part 7: Anna's Feelings Following the First Two Treatments • Part 8: Anna's Feelings After the Completion of Treatment • Part 9: Recent Thoughts of Suicide

(Guide note: Internet posts are very informal. Writing can be freeform, without the usual worries about spelling, punctuation, and grammar.)

it seems so inevitable.

i'm going with brad plus my mum and dad to the hospital today, to talk to the clinical specialist nurse about ect. i'm a bit embarrassed about turning up with such a huge entourage, but everyone has questions and i probly won't ask them, so it's as well that they come.

it feels like the decision is already made - i'm going to have ect.

i might even be having the first shock this time next week.

i'll have a general anaesthetic, and have jelly applied to my temples and a rubber stick put in my mouth, they'll then administer the shock and i'll have a huge seizure.

repeat twice a week for three weeks, and i'll be cured.

as if by magic.

yeh right.

and i know i should hold on and try that one last med, but to be honest

i don't think i have that much time left.

<holding on a very thin thread>

anna xxx

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