Understanding Borderline Personality Disorder
Monday October 13, 2003
The following quote from BPD Central describes the experience of borderline personality very well: "Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less. Pain, anger, confusion, hurt, never knowing how I'm gonna feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt those who I love. Feeling misunderstood. Analyzing everything. Nothing gives me pleasure. Once in a great while I will get 'too happy' and then anxious because of that. Then I self-medicate with alcohol. Then I physically hurt myself. Then I feel guilty because of that. Shame. Wanting to die but not being able to kill myself because I'd feel too much guilt for those I'd hurt, and then feeling angry about that so I cut myself or O.D. to make all the feelings go away. Stress!" Learn more about BPD
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WOW, I can’t believe how much this describes my battle with BPD. I was in denial until I read this….wow….amazing. The only thing left out for me is that I don’t kill myself because I believe that if I kill myself I’ll go to hell. I’m a born again believer and this is so hard. I am struggling, but my faith keeps me. I’d be dead long ago otherwise. And I still have a plan. Sad to say it, but it is true. Anyway, thanks for the quote!!! Praise God!!!
hi sherrie, and all, i too never took overdose because of born again beliefs about going to hell, not quite sure where i stand with that belief now, but what did help me was, if i could believe enough, in the way of thiniking about going to hell, then surely i ccould believe enough, that God does love me and has got a plan for my life, for good and not for evil, hope this helps, it helped me to think this way x